Sunday, January 9, 2011
The Purest Hearts You Will Ever Encounter
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| They're beautiful without trying. |
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| They get infatuated by the simplest of things. |
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| They're eyes will never show hate. |
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| When they need you, you'll know. |
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| They won't understand why everyone smiles when they see them, but they'll love every second of it. |
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| They're what makes a new generation. |
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| They get attached to the simplest of things. |
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| When they sleep you'll ask yourself whether they're real or just angels who have lost their way back home. |
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| They will grow up so quickly. |
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| They can turn the coldest of hearts into pure warmth and love. |
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Eternally Asleep
Some random writing:
I woke up and there I was, or was I still asleep? Anyhow, it was dark, in the distance I could hear the sound of a human pulse and it was turning lower and weaker every second, it gave me chills. I tried to run but I couldn't see where I was heading, as I tried to make my escape I soon realized that I had been obliviously planning my escape without knowing that I was trapped in a four wall room. As I touched the walls i felt that they were humid and cold, I touched my face and I was sweating cold. Why was this happening? Suddenly I felt the floor move as if an earthquake was starting and now I was falling.. it felt as if I was flying, the air was cold and for some odd reason I started touching my body to make sure I hadn't lost any body parts. The wind rushing across my body made a sound that was almost musical and soothing, this was nice, no, it was amazing. I was scared but relieved at the same time, if it was up to me I would have kept falling forever in that abyss but everything had an ending, and mine was fatal. The lights went on and as I landed on the floor I felt as if something went through my body, it broke through my back bones, went through my organs and came out through my stomach area. The cold serenity I had fallen in love with was now replaced by a warm painful feeling all over my body, I tried to tell my body to heal itself and it was doing the best it could but too much blood was coming out of it. My mouth now tasted of blood and my nose was overwhelmed by the smell of it as well. I panicked, this couldn't be the end. I closed my eyes and suddenly I was falling again, but this time I landed on a bed. I woke up with a scream, my hole body was trembling, without any hesitation I touched my stomach but there was no hole, no blood, no organs disassembled. I sighed in relieve and disappointment.. I dreaded the pain I had felt a few minutes before but the cold serine falling had been the best feeling I'd ever had. Maybe I was a masochist, maybe I was selfish but I wanted to go back to that place, and I closed my eyes again desiring to fall endlessly. My wish was granted, I was falling, and I could feel the soft cold wind in my body, I was flying again.. it was sweet, it was beautiful, it was eternal.
Meanwhile a family made the funeral arrangements of a young girl who had being in a horrible accident a few days ago. The young girl had given signs of coming back to life after being in a coma for about a week but mysteriously fell back into the coma and instantly died after screaming out loud, touching her body and closing her eyes. The hospital staff is baffled and confused, what was this girl experiencing in her comatose state that made her scream so sharply and react in such a terrified way? We can only hope that this girl's last moments weren't as terrifying as they seemed.
And they sure weren't.
I woke up and there I was, or was I still asleep? Anyhow, it was dark, in the distance I could hear the sound of a human pulse and it was turning lower and weaker every second, it gave me chills. I tried to run but I couldn't see where I was heading, as I tried to make my escape I soon realized that I had been obliviously planning my escape without knowing that I was trapped in a four wall room. As I touched the walls i felt that they were humid and cold, I touched my face and I was sweating cold. Why was this happening? Suddenly I felt the floor move as if an earthquake was starting and now I was falling.. it felt as if I was flying, the air was cold and for some odd reason I started touching my body to make sure I hadn't lost any body parts. The wind rushing across my body made a sound that was almost musical and soothing, this was nice, no, it was amazing. I was scared but relieved at the same time, if it was up to me I would have kept falling forever in that abyss but everything had an ending, and mine was fatal. The lights went on and as I landed on the floor I felt as if something went through my body, it broke through my back bones, went through my organs and came out through my stomach area. The cold serenity I had fallen in love with was now replaced by a warm painful feeling all over my body, I tried to tell my body to heal itself and it was doing the best it could but too much blood was coming out of it. My mouth now tasted of blood and my nose was overwhelmed by the smell of it as well. I panicked, this couldn't be the end. I closed my eyes and suddenly I was falling again, but this time I landed on a bed. I woke up with a scream, my hole body was trembling, without any hesitation I touched my stomach but there was no hole, no blood, no organs disassembled. I sighed in relieve and disappointment.. I dreaded the pain I had felt a few minutes before but the cold serine falling had been the best feeling I'd ever had. Maybe I was a masochist, maybe I was selfish but I wanted to go back to that place, and I closed my eyes again desiring to fall endlessly. My wish was granted, I was falling, and I could feel the soft cold wind in my body, I was flying again.. it was sweet, it was beautiful, it was eternal.
Meanwhile a family made the funeral arrangements of a young girl who had being in a horrible accident a few days ago. The young girl had given signs of coming back to life after being in a coma for about a week but mysteriously fell back into the coma and instantly died after screaming out loud, touching her body and closing her eyes. The hospital staff is baffled and confused, what was this girl experiencing in her comatose state that made her scream so sharply and react in such a terrified way? We can only hope that this girl's last moments weren't as terrifying as they seemed.
And they sure weren't.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Fears
Today I started thinking about how fears can truly be something different to what we usually associate them with. I myself have a mild arachnophobia, of course I can't say its a grave one because I've never had a tarantula on top of me or less touch one, so I don't know for sure how I would react to that, but I have cried over spiders so I'm definitely afraid of them. I'm also, ashamed I am to say so, still afraid of movies about spirits, monsters and so on. Yet I started thinking of how would it feel to be alone in a room with those fears. How would it feel, and this just gives me the chills just thinking about it, if a giant spider were to attack me and I had nowhere to run to or if a spirit were to chase me until it actually got a hold of me? What would happen? Would I die? Would I faint? Would my body stop working from the immense rush my body is going through? or would I actually encounter the greatest ecstasy (not in a sexual way) that I would ever feel?
So I've basically concluded that the things we are most afraid of are the things that unconsciously would cause us the biggest thrill of our lives if they ever came true. The mind avoids somethings for so long that unwillingly it learns to desire it with that much intensity.
Now that I've given my conclusion on what I think its the true nature of human fears I want to give my opinion on homophobia. Now a days homophobia is something that is very common among people. People that just cannot be around gays and bisexuals, they truly hate anyone who does not a have a heterosexual nature. In my opinion my theory relating fears applies perfectly to homophobia. Truth is that some studies say that we all have had gay inclinations. All men have admired another man at least for a few seconds from time to time. Of course a straight man would never admit to this, but its real. We woman have also admired another woman for a few seconds from time to time and even more since we are so exposed to provocative dressing styles and actions by women all around. So I believe there is no such a thing as a person who has never had homosexual tendencies. I believe that if a homophobic person ever had to have a homosexual experience it would end up being one of the best moments of their lives because such people are just scared to feel what they believe its wrong yet find so intriguing since its still taboo (in their minds at least).
I also want to think about the people who are afraid of heights. My mom is afraid of them ever since she can remember, but I believe that if a person that is afraid of heights were to jump from an airplane (with a parachute on of course) and experience a safe landing they would tell you that it was one of the best experiences of their lives because that rush was so overwhelming that the fear became pure excitement. A few months ago she managed to do something that she had never done in her life, she went up with us to the top of the Rockefeller Center, which is a pretty high building, when we were finished she actually wanted to stay more time than I did because she was so excited and happy. And trust me this is something that a year ago I would never see her doing and even less loving at all since her fear has always been so great.
I guess many people can contradict but its just my way of seeing things, no more.
So I've basically concluded that the things we are most afraid of are the things that unconsciously would cause us the biggest thrill of our lives if they ever came true. The mind avoids somethings for so long that unwillingly it learns to desire it with that much intensity.
Now that I've given my conclusion on what I think its the true nature of human fears I want to give my opinion on homophobia. Now a days homophobia is something that is very common among people. People that just cannot be around gays and bisexuals, they truly hate anyone who does not a have a heterosexual nature. In my opinion my theory relating fears applies perfectly to homophobia. Truth is that some studies say that we all have had gay inclinations. All men have admired another man at least for a few seconds from time to time. Of course a straight man would never admit to this, but its real. We woman have also admired another woman for a few seconds from time to time and even more since we are so exposed to provocative dressing styles and actions by women all around. So I believe there is no such a thing as a person who has never had homosexual tendencies. I believe that if a homophobic person ever had to have a homosexual experience it would end up being one of the best moments of their lives because such people are just scared to feel what they believe its wrong yet find so intriguing since its still taboo (in their minds at least).
I also want to think about the people who are afraid of heights. My mom is afraid of them ever since she can remember, but I believe that if a person that is afraid of heights were to jump from an airplane (with a parachute on of course) and experience a safe landing they would tell you that it was one of the best experiences of their lives because that rush was so overwhelming that the fear became pure excitement. A few months ago she managed to do something that she had never done in her life, she went up with us to the top of the Rockefeller Center, which is a pretty high building, when we were finished she actually wanted to stay more time than I did because she was so excited and happy. And trust me this is something that a year ago I would never see her doing and even less loving at all since her fear has always been so great.
I guess many people can contradict but its just my way of seeing things, no more.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I love you because you're unforgettable
I love you because you make me laugh
I love you because you understand me
I love you because you're not brain dead
I love you because you crave knowledge
I love you because you crave me
I love you because you've surprised me (in good ways)
I love you because you look like a chipmunk
I love you because you're mine
I love you... maybeh <3
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